Growing up, I've spent a lot of time feeling subdued and misunderstood. When I look at photos of my younger self, I see the light in my eyes and the zest in my spirit! But I didn't really know what i was capable of until I relocated away from my hometown for the first time. & It seems like every time I relocate, it becomes difficult to stay connected with the family I came into this world with. A part of me still longs to be seen and over-stood by family. I get upset in the moments where I can't be present in the ways that i used to be. Now that I'm away and fulfilling my dreams my way, I'm noticing that i really am a lone wolf on this journey of my life. The hard truth is, people can only view you as far as they're perception will allow. Unfortunately, people's perception can be skewed and not in alignment with your's. Physically distancing myself showed me who's intentional about having a healthy connection with me. I'm immensely grateful for my upbringing and where I come from, and it's okay that parts of that past no longer energetically resonates.
What do you see when you look in the mirror? Are you in love with what you see?
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Talk yo shit, cause you that Bitch!
While setting up and practicing healthy boundaries with myself and others, I've grown to love every aspect of myself, which changes every moment of everyday. That alone is constant growth. Loving yourself through your roughest situations, giving yourself the grace and nourishment you deserve, feeling your way through the darkness, all while achieving the stability and flexibility that is your ultimate birthright. Granting yourself the freedom to choose who and what you're going to be in this life, and allowing your space to fill up with stillness ... to sit with yourself, in the dark, aware of the thoughts coming to mind. Shit, just being conscious of the fact that you're hearing thoughts that are not yours is a breakthrough in itself. It takes practice loving yourself and showing yourself grace through it all, through whatever. And you won't always get it right. But the conscious effort speaks volumes. The inner work will speak volumes, and is very attractive.
Not everyone will see the real you. Some pretend not to see, & others don't deserve to see. But that only makes space for the right people to come forward to embrace you, to accept you, to appreciate you, to feed you, to expand with you, and to see you. 💚